Nana’s words

I am memorizing words by supermemo everyday and imitating VOA and CNN reporters. I will insist on for at least one month to see whether I could make great progress.

Do it step by step……

I know it…

I kept viewing some online communities and the members’ comments, experiences and their thoughts for days. I tried to find my answers from them. I feel like living in my own thoughts. Though I am sitting in the office and face the tool, computer, I cannot help looking through something with no relation of my work.

Well, I was thinking of firing my boss, I made my decision but I am hesitating to decide again. What? Because I don’t want to lose my job, I need to afford myself.

I watched episodes of American Idol and some hopefuls inspired me. They don’t quit their dreams even life is tough and hard. So…… I am thinking of doing something for myself.

Interpreter? Or teacher?

I will read some files and make some plans for 2010.

Go!

Sorry for missing so many days of recording my thoughts.

You know, sometimes, I don’t know how to start.

I told my friends and someone who care about me, 2009 is the most tough year for me. It was because of the direction of my own life not because I am really leading lives as Haiti people after the heavy earthquake.

I agree the idea that a man need something to depend on in his mind. You know, no matter you believe in God or Buddha, you have something to believe. But for me, since the start of 2009 until today, I have nothing to believe. This is the tough thing. When you have nothing to believe or chase, you don’t know what to do next.

I keep thinking of my life, my 27 years of life. Something I did wrong, something I did right. I feel I am the one that always hate myself. I hope I am perfect, no matter my face or my heart, no matter my work or my family life. But none is perfect. I said, you must accept who you are and love yourself. How to love? I always feel failure of my life. I cannot love the failed self though I accept.

Canon told me try to do some trade, he feels that I will be successful in some field. I promised him but I did nothing. I don’t know.

I know everyone may face such kind of problems. I believe every problem will not be what it seems to be. Go, Nana.

This is a crazy world, try not to be crazy.

I don’t want to be a person sink into a rut.

No innovation, no changes, no passion, no power, no hope…

The link I like best. Hope it will not shut down.