I feel so sleepy ……
Hope the night would be longer than ever, and I don’t have to open my eyes.
Hope the sun will not rise, and I don’t have to get up.
Just sleep and dream until I feel it is time to open my eyes~
You cannot build Rome in One Day.
Tea years ago, if I could wrote a note to me of today, I would say the above words.
Sometimes I lose strength to dream, to accept the fact. I wanna be a big one or someone. I didn’t think current is important. I didn’t think what I am experiencing is important. I was wrong. I have to work toward the goals step by step no matter how long I have to wait, even I have to work the whole life without approaching to my dreams. I had dreams and I lost them one day. I am not that clear even today. However, I couldn’t give myself up. I should believe in myself. When I show to the world I can, then I can. Like singing, I sang so bad before, now it is better, just because I never give it up, and insist on feel singing.
That’s it. I should believe God will give me something when he lets me experience tough days.
Hope I could make each day count.
I am memorizing words by supermemo everyday and imitating VOA and CNN reporters. I will insist on for at least one month to see whether I could make great progress.
Do it step by step……
I know it…
I kept viewing some online communities and the members’ comments, experiences and their thoughts for days. I tried to find my answers from them. I feel like living in my own thoughts. Though I am sitting in the office and face the tool, computer, I cannot help looking through something with no relation of my work.
Well, I was thinking of firing my boss, I made my decision but I am hesitating to decide again. What? Because I don’t want to lose my job, I need to afford myself.
I watched episodes of American Idol and some hopefuls inspired me. They don’t quit their dreams even life is tough and hard. So…… I am thinking of doing something for myself.
Interpreter? Or teacher?
I will read some files and make some plans for 2010.
Go!